October once was my favorite month. Carving pumpkins, drinking hot cider with my siblings on Saturday afternoons, and weekend softball tournaments with my dad cheering me on. Summer was a time for spreading out and escaping, but October always signified a time when I could squeeze my family in. But then there were the dark underbellies of October. Panic attacks before homecoming dances because I was worried I wouldn’t look perfect and hadn’t eaten in days because I needed something to control. Staying up late after my parents went to bed so I could sneak outside to check every pumpkin because I was anxious and thought our house would burn down from a stray candle. But those were past Octobers.
It is an Undeniable Truth that this time of the year is basically when everything starts to fall (HAHA) to pieces: stress about midterms, anxiety about the approaching winter months, general homesickness, other typical Life on the Hill-induced fits of stir-craziness tend to pile up, and it is for these reasons that we lovingly bestow upon this month the name of Awktober, or the Struggle Month.
But before you do something drastic like deciding to use your fall break to complete your transfer application to OSU/try to force-mulligan all your classes by faking your death/scream in my face “OCTOBER?? I BARELY KNOW HER!!”, take a deep breath. Step back, realize that October Break is nearly here, and take a firm grasp on your life.